Kelas Tak Hanya Ruang

hallo whiteboard, masih ingat coretan kami di wajahmu ketika Taufik ulang tahun?

hallo lampu neon, bagaimana kabar serpihanmu setelah bola kami menciummu?

hallo speaker, masihkah kau menyanyikan kami lagu alay dan menginterupsi ceramah membosankan dari guru kami?

hallo lemari, tetapkah kau mengunci pintu kirimu dari dunia luar dan menyembunyikan data yang tak seharusnya kami tahu?

hallo kelas xi ipa 3, adakah kau merindukan jeritan histeris Imam &tangisan bahagia Ucup ketika bisa ikut ke Jogja?

sekarang kami tak punya kelas, tak ada lagi cerita tentang whiteboard,lampu neon,speaker,lemari,&semua

saksi bisu perjalanan masa muda kami

kami telah berjanji kepada langit tak akan mengeluh,karena kelas hanya sekumpulan dinding yang membatasi kebersamaan kami dari dunia luar...

tapi sepertinya langit pun mengingkarkan janjinya kepada kami, &kami pun mengingkarkan janji kami. sekarang kami mengeluh.

kami rindu kelas

Cerita Lebah Madu

Sayang, koloni ini palsu
Seperti tas murahan yang dijajal berkualitas nomor satu
Sekali terlihat membuat cemburu
Tapi coba lihat kulit dalam saku

Sayang, koloni ini palsu
Sudah kulacur egoku
Sudah kuobral maafku
Sudah kugadai cintaku
Sudah kubakar percayaku

Tetapi sepi,
Tak beresonansi
Tak juga berinterferensi
Hanya sebagian terdifraksi
Sisanya terefleksi, terpantul kembali

Nafas yang berat ini kuhela perlahan
Hal ini hanya debu mikroskopik dalam perjalanan
Masih panjang, luas, dan tak memiliki tepian
Aku tak butuh pengalih perhatian

Sayang, koloni ini palsu
Tapi mereka belum tahu

Aku lebih palsu

Random

my life is sooooo boring lately. blog gue jadi terbengkalai, dulu biasanya ada satu-dua lalet yang mampir bikin heboh ini blog, sekarang udah sepiiii

krik... krik... krik...

temen blogger gue pada kemana dah? WOY GUA UDAH BALIK WOY. huhuhu bego sih lu, nne! pake hiatus segala, gaya banget dah. jadinya pada kabur kan? ah udahlah. posting random pict aja yaa

eye tells lie
hasil doodling gara-gara bosen merhatiin guru

Rewind, Forward, Pause, Stare, &Play

just got a flashback to several months a go

dimana saya berpikir hidup saya udah kosong
dimana saya berpikir gak ada lagi yang bisa menahan kaki saya tetap menginjak bumi
dimana saya berpikir semua yang berharga yang riil saya miliki udah gak ada
dimana saya berpikir saya harus berhenti berpikir

terdengar berlebihan
memang iya berlebihan
emang kapan sih saya gak berlebihan?
tapi itu kenyataan...
tapi saya inget
mau sampe kapan saya kayak orang bodoh menangisi yang udah gak ada?
mau sampe kapan saya meraung-raung macam orang gila?
mau sampe kapan saya berpikir semuanya bakal kembali kayak dulu lagi?

life must goes on...

dan saya menjalani hari-hari berikutnya dengan setengah hati
kamu mungkin melihat saya tapi kamu kan gak bisa melihat hati saya
waktu makan di kantin Umi mungkin saya masih bisa tertawa
tapi siapa yang tahu dalem hati saya udah mau bunuh diri
awa bilang "gue ngeliat lo berdua udah cocok banget deh, nne! kok bisa?"
well, saya juga kurang lebih gak tau kenapa, wa
jangan tanya saya, bukan saya yang minta
tapi dia

dulu mungkin saya nangis kalo inget-inget hal cheesy kayak gini
tapi sekarang saya udah bisa senyum lagi
justru saya bersyukur udah pernah menyayat2 lengan kiri saya
karena sekarang saya tahu saya itu bodoh dan harus berubah

dan akhirnya saya memilih untuk tidak berpura-pura bahwa saya baik-baik saja
karena saya nggak baik-baik saja &saya capek bohong terus
jadi saya resapi aja semua sakitnya
saya bawa seharian dari bangun tidur sampe tidur atau bahkan mungkin sampe saya tidur trus gak bangun-bangun lagi
karena bagaimanapun juga itu bagian dari transformasi saya
bagian dari evolusi saya
bagian dari hidup saya
&sekarang saya sadar
emang itu satu-satunya cara untuk ngelepasin semua rasa sakitnya
cuma dengan membiarkan rasa itu jadi bagian dari diri saya

kalau sekarang saya sudah bersama dengan Panda
saya gak berharap dia selalu jemput pas pulang sekolah
gak berharap dia selalu bawain pudding waktu saya marah
gak berharap dia selalu beliin apa yang saya minta
saya cuma ingin dia tau cerita saya
tau apa aja yang saya lakuin dan masalah-masalah saya
karena sekali lagi saya belajar dari kejadian sebelumnya
cara paling mudah untuk menerima suatu hal dalam hidup saya,

ya dengan menganggap itu bagian dari diri saya sendiri

you're my helluva

Tuesdays with Morrie

Kok blog gue lama-lama kesannya jadi kea sampahnya gue ya? Isinya curhatan gak jelas semua hahaha bodo ah, i’ll make a new one then, and i promise it won’t be such a trashy blog (like this one)

Well, it’s my random toughts and opinions about life here, but i think they get too personal here hahaha okay i need to stop doing this trashy post.

I’ve read a novel titled “Tuesdays with Morrie”. Actually it’s more like a chicken soup for the soul or whatsoever that related to psycology thingy, but there’s a thing that makes this novel different than others.

It speaks about a life of Morrie Schwartz who is dying because of Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS), google it yourself to know what ALS means hahaha. Mitch, Morrie’s exstudent, write down their conversation about Morrie’s life after the ALS attacked him when Mitch came to visit him every Tuesday.

It’s unique to see how different a person would think and act when he’s closer to death each day, and it makes me think too – as a youngster and still have a long journey to go (perhaps) – that it isn’t too late to change my point of view about life. Morrie doesn’t exaggerate his ALS and how many time left to live his life, he finished his job while he still breathing instead. He’s doing as many good thing as he could before his time is up. He started to change his point of view about life, he stopped following the culture that always tell him what to do and others.

It’s a must read novel, unlike any teenlit or chicklit or others shalow stories, this one will really teach you about a life and how to overcome your own death.

One thing that really got stuck in my head after reading this novel is :

“Everytime you breath, you’re closer to death, and there’s no way to deny it, admit it. And whether you realize it or not, your heartbeat is getting slower each second and it will stop beating someday. You never now when, where, how you will die, but there’s one thing that’s valid about your death, it is coming and you definitely can do something, not to deny it, but to change and do some goods before you’re gone. There’s no other way to go that could be more peaceful than dying but there are many people who will always remember your kindness and all the good times they had when they’re together with you though you’re not existed on this earth anymore.”

I'm officially back, and yes.. i'm so sorry dearr

Reasons why I can’t write a new post though I’ve said that I’m back from my hiatus time :

CLASS-TEE PROJECT

Designing this class-tee really gets in my nerve lately. Gotta catch up with the dateline PLUS putting up 30-some opinions together on one shirt! Crazy! I know...

COUPLE TEE PROJECT

(sorry no preview... gak boleh katanya hehehe)

Designing this tee is also make me go nuts! I have to finished this in

3days at first, but then, well.. i can’t meet the dateline so it was rescheduled, sorry teng... I designed this especially for my friend – call him Ateng – cause his exgirlfriend will had a sweet17 and he really want to give something special for her. Well, he got that right (hopefully). Hehehe well, happy birthday to Anya and hope that you both will reconnected soon :D

STUDY TOUR TO JOGJAKARTA

Yeah you guessed it right, they are wearing the tee that I mentioned above! And yeah, you guessed it right again! It’s so easy to find my other classmates inside the crowd, we are the only one that wearing such a bright-colored-tee on a bright day and in a large number. So, yeahs, don’t affraid to get lost as long as you wear yellow that day. Yellow is our color that day hahaha

SMANTILA MAGZ COVER PROJECT

This is my first time made a cover for a magazine. Eventough only for once and only for 38’s student, I still think that this is a good oportunity to introduce some of my work to people, remeber, small step could lead us into a big success, Amen J

And just so you know, I didn’t write this to declare that I’m back at blogging, I’m not. Just another pop-up post. Huft. I know, I’ve act really annoying. Saying that I will have such hiatus without no good reason, and then I’m back, but I didn’t post a new posts frequently. I know I know... my mistake... -_____-

Guessed that I should make a priority scale L so soorrryyyy for being irresponsible, ignorant, annoying, and others. So sorry, AGAIN! SOOORRRYYY!

And from now on I will have to work my ass off to finish my school and continue on a university that I would die for it. Still the same university as before, FAKULTAS SENI RUPA DAN DESAIN INSITUT TEKNIK BANDUNG! Or for the second choice hubungan internasional universitas padjajaran bandung, or maybe for the third choice fakultas kedokteran gigi unviversitas indonesia. Too much? Yess and noo. My friend said : “percuma nargetin mau masuk situ tapi kalo pede sama kemampuan sendiri aja ngga. Gak usah ngoyo bilang mau masuk sana kalo emang gak percaya diri, mending ambil sastra jawa sana, apa ngga jurusan lain yang lo yakin bakal masuk.”. so i will confident with those choices that i’ve made...

abstract toughts and deepest tears

my life feel so messed up right now.
no more true friends on twescith
no more happy stories on diary
no more jingle class that ringing my ears
there's just no more happiness in my life

if i could then i would runaway, change my class, drowning myself onto something, whatever that could take me away from this condition.
gue hiatus
maaf gak sempet kasih tau
dari kemaren juga rencananya ini blog mau ditutup
tapi gak rela hehehehe :p

hmm. intinya?
mungkin gak ada lagi FSRD ITB
mungkin...
atau mungkin gak ada lagi HI UNPAD
juga mungkin...
gue jadi males
gue jadi ogah
huuuaaaahhhhhh....

if i could then i would die...